The Northern Downpour

life is funny

I'm saying this because
I think it is so easy for life to
provide good things 
and then let us enjoy
it looks so happy in a short period of time
and at the most unexpected moment

when you're very carefree 

you're very cheerful

suddenly God takes something away from you

you know it's

just a little amount

but you feel like 

it's the whole world

and then you count 

the days back then

precisely before it happens

and you can't believe

how close it is

for you to 

lose it all

like in a snap of a finger
like it's on the back of the hand 

it feels like
everything's gone
you really want to prove that it's wrong
but for some time you feel like everything is
taken away from you
you feel like "you're such a crybaby"
for feeling such things
because you didn't understand
you didn't understand why
but life didn't wanna know why
it keeps moving
the clock keeps ticking
it keeps moving forward
there's no undo even though it's a great feeling
you can't go back to how it felt
and when it's a sad feeling
and you just want to go on
you can't
it's like time is punishing you

"you should feel this
you should feel the sorrow
you should grief
until then you can move on"

it's just not fair
and life is so funny
and you just wished
everything would be back to normal
you don't know how
you don't know what will the future holds
thus in your mind you can only think
of all the bad things that will happen
again
because this might not be the one
perhaps this will be the first one
and there will be next

you know you can't hold on to that thought
because it hasn't happened yet
but deep down you know it will

and you're not prepared
you're not prepared for that to head on you
you're not prepared on how it feels 
because you only think
what matters to you right now is
you want things to get back to the way it used to be
but sadly you can't

what is the point anyway?
why do you feel so much?