Saturday, February 28, 2015

Bait dan Kenangan

"I'm broken..do you hear me? I'm blinded..'Cause you are everything I see.."
Begitu bait tersebut mulai terputar malam ini, aku termenung. Rasanya sudah lama sekali lagu ini tidak kudengarkan. Aku pun beristirahat sejenak sambil mendengarkan lagu ini lebih dalam. Seketika bayangan dan perasaan semacam deja vu itu muncul, Aku sedang mengingat sebuah momen. 

"I'm dancin' alone, I'm praying, that your heart will just turn around.."
Momen itu semakin jelas. Kenangannya juga mulai terasa. Lagu itu masih terputar hingga kunyanyikan reff-nya. Kemudian, bait ini..

"If I'm louder, would you see me? Would you lay down in my arms and rescue me? 'Cause we are the same, you save me, when you leave it's gone again."
Rasanya sudah lama sekali tidak menyanyikannya. Irama dan liriknya melekat hingga aku mampu mengingat semua kenangan saat aku masih berada di kelas X dulu. Lagu ini mengingatkanku akan hari-hariku di SMA kelas X. Terasa sangat hangat dan semuanya terulang lagi malam ini, meskipun hanya dalam benakku.

"I've never had the words to say, but now, I'm asking you to stay for a little while inside my arms. And as you close your eyes tonight, I pray that you will see the light that's shining from stars above."
Seakan-akan lagu ini berbicara kepadaku. Bukan, bukan lagunya, tetapi kenangannya. Seolah-olah berkata ingin tinggal sejenak dan memintaku berada di dalam dekapannya, walau tanpa harus mengatakan apapun. Seolah-olah ia datang tanpa sebab dan memintaku untuk menampungnya sejenak. Ya, tentu saja aku terima.

Kau terasa hangat malam ini, tetapi mungkin tidak baik jika aku membiarkanmu tinggal.

"It just don't feel right, 'Cause I can love you more than this. Can love you more than this."
Lagu itu pun akhirnya habis, Setelah sekitar 4 menit kuhabiskan dengan mendekap isinya - hidupku, perlahan mereka sirna. Terima kasih sudah mau singgah. :)

Sunday, February 22, 2015

And Again, The Script Teaches Me Something...

Even though in the lyrics, Danny (The Script's vocalist) was told by someone I believe the one he called as "She" in the song. But to me, Danny was the one who deliver this beautiful message to every fans of his, including me. And it's like he told me directly when the first I listened to this song. It's called "It's Not Right For You".

He said, "It's hard enough trying to live your life. But not following your dreams made you dead inside. If you don't love what you do."
If we don't do something now then we'll never know. If we stay here too long then we'll, we'll never grow old. So, before it's too late and it's killing you, yeah. We've only one life to live. So love what you do.

And again, The Script teaches me something... 
 

Monday, February 16, 2015

Mom's Arms

The more my body feel weak, the more I miss to be in your arms, mom. This sickness makes me want to go home and be a baby under your protection.

I just feel kinda homesick right now.

Sunday, February 15, 2015

Too Many!

Too many things that are spinning through my mind. Too many!
They're like going back and forth, I don't get it. Why my mind confuse me by trying to make me think too much. Sometimes I can't handle it, I feel like it's going to explode.

I can't handle it. It's something strange, beautiful, sad, and good all at once.
Even the strangest happen when some songs are repeating in my mind while I am currently listening to another song from my iPod. 





Maybe I think too much. 
I probably should rest my eyes now.